Sunday, February 24, 2013

Pre-surgery freak out

I have reached the point in my pre-surgical routine where I start freaking out about the procedure. Seriously, you guys. I'm terrified of having my cyst removed on Wednesday. It's stupid because this is a super-minor, outpatient procedure. But I'm still scared. I attribute this to some sort of post-traumatic stress related to my butt surgery. It's been almost a year and a half since I had my tailbone removed, and it still hurts (which, in my brain, at least, means that it's still not healed, and definitely not "fixed" like it was supposed to be). Despite my surgeon's reassurances, I don't really believe that this will be no big deal and far less invasive and painful than the tailbone surgery. I just keep imagining infected incisions, poor healing, and constant, chronic pain that continues long after I'm supposed to be "healed." I also keep telling myself that my wrist is not my butt, and everything will be fine. I don't really believe me, though.

I don't really have much more to say except this sucks. That is all.

1 comment:

Jenna said...

Oh, goodness! Thinking of you!