I feel like I'm at a number of crossroads right now. I have certain choices to make, and I feel lots of pressure to make the "best" choice in each situation. Some of the choices are minor - do I follow the treatment plan from W's former OT, whom I loved and was entirely comfortable with, or the treatment plan from the new OT, whose focus I don't agree with, but who does some of the stuff I've thought all along would be good for W. Some are far less minor. All of them seem to be decisions I'm going to have to make on my own. And I'm going to have to do my best at choosing between alternatives.
But I've decided that "best" is subjective. No matter what I do, it's never going to be best enough. It might be ok, or even good, but it won't be best. I second guess myself too much for that. Having to be a grown up and make adult decisions and stuff is kind of a pain in the ass. I think I'd like to go back to kindergarten now, please.