I've know for years that I have issues with hormones. It's only become apparent recently how serious those issues are. I've noticed since my crazy days (and possibly the month or so before that...my brain has wrapped those days in a very soft focus so I don't remember those couple of months perfectly clearly) the week-ish before my period hits, I go off the deep end again. It's like clockwork. And it's baaaaaaaaaaad. It's also really bizarre.
It also happens to occur right about the time I have a psychiatrist appointment scheduled, so I go into that appointment feeling like absolute shit about myself, even when I'm happy(ish) and smiling (sometimes) the other three weeks of the month. I'm going to write this down so I can mention it when I go to my next psychiatrist appointment feeling like permanently disappearing under a rock.
I think my best possible solution at this point is a hysterectomy. They let you do those electively, don't they? Before you're 30? Menopause can't be that bad...lots of old ladies live through it every day. I wonder how long my GYN will laugh at me before telling me no.
But that's really the only plausible solution I can come up with. Unless there's some sort of super-dose psych medicine I can take for a few days before I start my period that will at least keep me level-ish until my uterus does its thing and I can get back to being (relatively) happy(esque) the rest of the month.
Anyone have serious-but-semi-stable depression/anxiety/other mental health issue that takes hormone-related nosedives once a month? What have you done to combat the problems? Is there anything out there other than ute-yanking? There has to be, right?
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have you thought about taking the pill straight through? You would start the new pack on the day you are supposed to take the brown fake one...check with your GYN. It may take a month or 2 to even out, but then, no periods and no PMS!
My mother SWEARS that her hysterectomy was THE BEST THING THAT EVER HAPPENED TO HER! She said the difference in the crazy hormones was AMAZING! Having passed those hormones on to me, she thinks I should request a hysterectomy ASAP =). If your doctor knows your history, and you explain that you are absolutely serious, I would think it would be possible. And, it eludes me at the moment, but I'm pretty sure there is a name for that WAY-WORSE-than-PMS problem that happens to some of us every month. I hope you have a good doctor who will take you seriously!!
I have started keeping a little calendar, so that I can show my doctor when I finally go in for this: I write down the date, the day number of my cycle, and a few words about how I'm feeling that day. It is interesting (discouraging) to see that it really is a cycle! There is a definite relationship between the day of my cycle and how I'm feeling.
Hang in there!!
It's called PMDD.
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