Originally written September 13
Any time I stop to think about the pregnancy situation, I can't help but feel like God is sitting up in Heaven laughing His ass off at me. I've thought for a long time that God doesn't like me, and I'm more firmly convinced of that than ever.
But I guess when you write things like this (last paragraph) and this (first paragraph) and even this, and say things like, "I do not want another child. At. All. One is way more than enough," you're bound to get your ass handed to you.
What's that old saying? "If you want to make God laugh, tell Him your plans"? Yeah, that's pretty much happened to me. And I hate it. No one likes being made fun of...particularly by the Big Guy.
1 comment:
I just want you to know your not the only mommy out there who feels this way. Do not get me wrong, I love my baby, but sometimes I wish I could go back to that girl who wanted to get pregnant so badly and tell her what mommyhood would really be like. Before the baby I never left my house without makeup, hair, clothes, now I'm lucky if I get to wash my face and brush my teeth. That girl no longer exists and somedays it really gets me down.
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